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This morning I came across a line that took me back to missing having a boyfriend. I bump into this sentence by mistake on Facebook.  

“I’m proud of him for putting up with me...” that was the line.

Here’s what happens; if I see someone on Twitter whom I find interesting enough to follow, I first Google him and see if he is on Facebook or not or what information is out there about him. In doing that I go through the available information just to see if he is still worth my follow.

This was the case this morning; I came across this line on Facebook as a comment this guy –I wanted to follow on Twitter- made on a photo of his boyfriend. Immediately, I felt lonely and miserable and I could not help but think of when one of my former lovers used a similar line about me to his friends while I was in the other room. “Argh, he really loves me shame, I mean after putting up with my crap, he’s still with me... oh he’s a sweetheart...”- he would say.

This got me thinking that in as much as I always point the finger to my exes for my failed relationships, I am to blame too for failing to keep and put up with them like I had promised myself I would. At the end of the day I messed up too, but because I refuse to let the love I have for myself get tainted, I do not mind seeing the exit.

Right now, I am free as a single person, but I sure do not like doing things alone.  Maybe it is about time I get myself a very expensive teddy bear.

Happy read!